Counting days to end my Degree years
*Applause gais please please please lol*

Will be leaving Terengganu more or less in 52 days.
I have few days for weekend and then I'll off for my Internship
I'm sorry I didn't stay true to my words
It has been three months since I last blog
So let me just highlight few events 

Finish my Final Year Project with tears and blood
Hiked Gunung Stong
Been to few places I've never been
Met my ayah after what? 2 years?
Win two indoor rowing races- UTHM and Monsoon Cup

well I guess I didn't actually do much HAHAHA

Anyhow, it's a week of FYP presentation
but mine would be on 5th of May (1 week to go)
I just finished my slides yesterday phewwww
For the record, I never slacked in any of my presentation
but I have chills for this one as for my data is not that good
Ready to catch some bullets on that day!
*turn on kungfu fighting song

Later!
How could something so touch and go
leave me feeling so euphoric inside?
Why did everything I ever wanted to prove
to be nothing more then something I couldn't have?
I felt emptier than I've ever felt before
It takes everything I have in me not to cry

It was beautiful. 
Happiness and sadness were all beautiful

Dammit. I really want to believe in that.
I don't know what is happening to me
that I lose self control. Anger sadness
They are too overwhelming.
I don't want to live in denial but honestly,
I hate the truth.

Keep telling myself not to hold these grudges
Its been years and I supposed everyone forgets already
It just me, living in the past. Why?
I just won't sit still until things are resolved
I want answer in every question
I want people to be honest with me
Conclude. Wrap up.
Be the man you claim to be
Was it that hard to put things in their place?

I know sometime I pressured myself
Overthinking and all. It just it
Reality kills and truth bites


The places where you have your biggest challenges 
is the place where you have most to give

The world is. This place is.


AAxPenang

Hi. this post was meant to be written like 2 month ago
Tapi biasalah Fika kan selalu acah-acah busy gosh haha










So, here we go
Met this guy at PLKN in 2012
I don't even talked to to him back then
I seriously don't remember why we are still in touch
Much probably because we're both using blackberry (okay sila gelak)











When I was in Matriculation, he was the one;
Giving me courage, saying everything will be fine
At that moment I'm just too tired living away from home.
Ouh forgot to mention, he was in KMNS but
After 2month he left for, MAS training somewhere in Subang
(After all nasihat he gave me to stay in matric he left. Irony lol)

And after that, we only contact each other through
Facebook( very rarely ) and twitter (once a month?)











Blablablablabla....
We finally met after 3 years 5 months
A bad smoker he became which doesn't look good on him
Merely because of his face. We even called him Jambu in PLKN.
So I guess you should know why.

Anyway, we went for a short trip to Penang yeayyyyy!
Its was all Escape Park, Makan, Makan, RM1 air botol, and Makan lulz
The best part was, coincidentally, It was Mid-Autumn Festival
(I hope you get great pictures of the night)
And the dormitory was great. He insisted to have a room with foreigner.
Apa-apalah afif.




Seriously, 2days 1night is not enough
Lets plan a better one okay next time.

"Don't let the salt get in our eyes
Don't let the ghost get in our hearts
There are sweet memories in the corner of my mind
They are telling me to throw up
All the things that I want to hide

That we're having fun in the daytime
We'll chase the stars in the nighttime
And we'll take the sun in the morning

We just don't care if they see us fall"

(AG, 2011)


AfikaNordin :)

Oh there's a very pleasant side to you - Kolej Matrikulasi Selangor

hai :)

tak lama lagi batch seterusnya akan ganti tempat kiteorang pulak so welcome to my juniors or should i say our junior since my sister is the first batch and i was the third batch at Kolej Matrikulasi Selangor and insyaAllah you guys will see me again there. eh no, im not PDT-ians. i assigned my name as one of the facilitators..i havent confirm it yet but insyaAllah (twice already fyka).


kalau dapat bilik aku, nie lah pemandangan nya :)
AP3-T3-12


so been there and done that. been through the matriculation life and so on..so my advice first and foremost, for Minggu Pendaftaran Pelajar Baru (MPPB)

1. Datang awal kalau korang ak bilik bawah lah. dulu akak ni datang lambat padahal rumah dekat je so, selama setahun terpaksa lah mendaki tingkat 3 tuh. dah lama memang tak rasa tapi masa minggu mppb, dah lah kena berlari sana sini..memang penat jugak lah lagi lagi kalau korang jenis tido mati.

2. Beli setem hasil awalawal (sebab akak datang lambat) pagi pagi dah kena beratur dekat pejabat pos and it aint cool at all

3. Girls, dont wear heels. masa akak datang akak pakai heels tapi bila dah kena hantar barang naik atas hmm terus tukar pakai sneakers

4. Iron baju awal awal. jangan sampai sana baru nak iron. at least sediakan for the whole week sebab korang confirm penat and bila sampai bilik mesti nak baring je.

5. Minerals and bread . always always always bring it in your bag. no matter how much you hate minerals water and wheat, damn its like hunger games here bro. you got no time babe. macam korang duduk asrama lah kan, kita kan buat stock makanan dalam locker..to those who used to live at hostel, keep up that habit

6. Fan. hand fan, kipas pakai battery tu pun boleh. Matrik ni matrik baru no. we have no trees and we have no aircond in the hall..imagine you gonna spend most of your time in the hall. lencun wa cakap sama lu. so fan.

petang di KMS. capture masa minggu MPPB lah nie..
panas ouh tapi okay lah :)

7. Phones or Watch. time like usual, we like punctuality lagi lagi minggu torturing nie kan. faci suka sangat cari salah korang. ada sekali tuh akak kena berdiri sebelah kaki sebab turun lambat..nak buat camne, satu bilik tido mati. perempuan ragging tak teruk lah kut, lelaki hmmm tanya abang faci nanti okay kihkihkih


*maaf ye, abang sebelah datang jual tudung pulak..ape ke peliknya kan, okay sambung*


8. Practicum-mate or Roomate or anyone. Kalau boleh stick together dengan mereka mereka ni. takut nanti sesat ke bosan ke or paling menakutkan kalau hilang kunci..tak takut mana pun tapi malas nak cari diorang nanti. ha! save no. phone mereka mereka ini. kenali lah rakan kelas anda sebab ada sorang mamat kat kelas kau salah kelas for a week -______-"

9. Cool. stay cool all the time tapi jangan bajet pulak lain dah tuh..korang buat je benda gila gila macam korang selalu buat. masa dengar ceramah kalau nak tido, tido. kalau korang jenis yang cepat gabra and kalut, lupakan niat korang tuh eh sebab most of the rules will be delivered tapi kat buku ada je tulis. no worries :)

10. Friendly. time ni lah korang boleh buat kawan sebenarnya. tegur je seberapa banyak orang yang korang boleh..sebab, diorang ni lah yang korang akan ajak main futsal, bola tampar, rugby, netball and even cycling petang petang nanti. memang tak rugi buat kawan nanti jumpa jugak kat universiti

ouh and also. matric card and the whole pack of 1 sem schedule :)
good luck guys!
okay budak asrama dulu tak payah risau sebab tak suruh pakai tudung jahit tengah pun kat sini
and korang bebas pakai tudung selain putih, hitam and cream tuh okay lulz
just masa sesi orientasi wajib pakai tudung yang KMS kasi
and boys you guys have to wear KMS's tie (its red and okay lah kut. kut lah)
well nasihat yang kurang berwibawa ni dibawakan khas oleh saya :)
we will meet there para junior sekalian. till then. Assalamualaikum and chowz
and believe me, its gonna be fun there ^^v

mardy bum- arctic monkey

signed,
fykakim

A World Apart But They Don't Make A Sound



bismillahirrahmannnirrahim :)
praise to Him whom always be here in my heart, InsyaAllah.
semoga segala titik hitam di dalam hati ini dapat dihilangkan dan diganti dengan nur cahayaNya.


setelah hampir berminggu minggu nak pilih tajuk untuk perucapan awam,
akhirnya teks yang telah dirangka berjaya disampaikan dengan baik. maybe :p
mula mula tu pecah kepala jugak nak pilih tajuk so aku start tanya kawan kawan
and the best choice to ask is Faizie sebab dia dapat best speaker the previous week,
aku tanya larh macam mana dia boleh pilih tajuk for what he gonna talk
and he said, do something you like that you are keen of..know your strength.
once a upon a time..cewahhh faizie duduk bilik sam masa sam main gitar then,
dia dapat ilham nak buat pasal musik so that is what delivered last time.


so i decided to poet and talk about something everyone obsess of (including me) which is LOVE
when i said, "pada hari ini saya menyampaikan ucapan yang bertajuk CINTA" 
muka semua orang sumpah macam tak boleh bla giler..ada muka confuse, muka excited
muka minah-nie-gatal-dowh, seronok sebenarnya duduk kat depan tengok expression semua orang :)
continue "sebelum itu, saya akan mendeklamasikan sebuah sajak" yeay orang tepuk tangan!

menurutku..
cinta adalah kekuatan
yang mampu mengubah duri menjadi mawar
mengubah cuka menjadi anggur
megubah malang menjadi untung
mengubah sedih menjadi riang
mengubah setan menjadi nabi
mengubah iblis menjadi malaikat
mengubah sakit menjadi sihat
mengubah bakhil menhajadi dermawan
mengubah kandang menjadi taman
mengubah penjara menjadi istana
mengubah amarah menjadi ramah
mengubah musibbah menjadi muhibbah
itulah cinta

*clapclapclap* Me: leklu, tak habis lagi hehehe

sekalipun cinta telah kuuraikan
dan kujelaskan panjang lebar
namun jika cinta kudatangi
aku jadi malu pada keterangan ku sendiri
meskipunlidahku telah mampu menguraikan
namun tanpa lidah, cinta ternyata lebih terang
sementara pena begitu tergesa gesa menuliskannya
kata kata pecah berkeping keping begitu sampai kepada cinta
dalam menguraikan cinta
akal terbaring tidak terdaya
bvagaikan keldai terbaring dalam lumpur
cinta sendirilah yang menerangkan cinta dan percintaan


sajak Puisi Tentang Erti Cinta ini telah dipetik dari novel Ketika Cinta Bertasbih hasil karya Habiburrahman El-shirazy dan novel ini telah diadaptasi kepada sebuah filem pada tahun 2009 dengan tajuk yang sama. i havent watch the film or read the book but i have seen the part where the poem is being recite :)
ouh yeah..i love poem so much that i can even cry when i read it. the poet was saying that love is undefined, very pure and deep than u can imagine

back to my speech, then i talk about 8 jenis yang disebut dalam Al-quran dan hadis
semua ini boleh dibaca dekat blog nie..the source of all the point i delivered just now..please, feel free to open this site *click here*

Ibn Qayyum pernah berkata,

 "cinta tidak boleh didefinasikan dengan jelas, 
bahkan bila didefinasikan tidak menghasilkan sesuatu melainkan 
menambah kabur dan tidak jelas. (bererti) definasinya adalah cinta itu sendiri"

(madarajus salikin)

kitab ini membahaskan tentang thariqah iaallah (perjalanan menuju Allah). ingatlah, sesungguhnya,
apa yang kita lakukan pada hari ini, semuanya adalah untuk mencari keredhaan Allah swt. ya diri ini penuh dengan kekhilafan masa lalu dan diri ini juga sedang menyusuri perjalanan untuk memperbaiki setiap inci diri yang serba kekurangan dan mungkin hanya mampu untuk berkata kata bagi mengingatkan insan lain..insyaAllah, bersama sama lah kita berusaha untuk mencarti dan merasai nikmat iman dan islam yang telak dikurniakan. perkara pertama yang harus kita lakukan adalah mencintai Allah swt sebelum mencintai insan lain..cintailah seseorang yang mampu membawa kita menemuinya dan cinta ini haruslah cinta yang diredhai Allah swt..mungkin agak sukar bagi kita mengejar dan mencari erti sebuah cinta oleh itu, mulakanlah langkah kita sebagai hambaNya dengan mencintaiNya terlebih dahulu..InsyaAllah akan Allah pertemukan diri dengan seseorang yang juga mencintai dirinya..

back to the speech thingy, i was honoured as best speaker of the day. madam kata aku nampak bersedia but frankly speaking, i wasnt..i just blurted out everything on my mind and trying to catch every sense coming out my mouth at the same time because it was unplanned..undeniable, i was holding myself from crying when i delivered those speech because i know, i wasnt up to that level to talk about the real meaning of love..and when i recall back what i've done in my previous years, nayy..just remember,

Allah lah yang memegang hati manusia. Dia juga yang memberikan rasa cinta. 
maka selayaknya, dialah yang kita cintai dahulu


insyaAllah dipermudahkan hidup :)


with love,
fykakim



i love you more than you'll ever know- never shout never 





the more i think about the more i want to let you know


what have you touched?
what are you holding onto?
what are you trying to reach?
what would you do when its in your hand?

when you let me
when it happen ,
xoxo